This post is duplicated on my domain.
I first want to apologise for the downtime. I hope it was because my hosts were molesting the server and I am getting a new Plesk install and a control panel. But truth be told it was all that data base tinkering I did yesterday that clogged the server. *hangs head* I always feel like I don't know what I am doing when I play around with computers and servers and the like, and there's a good possibility that is true, when they malfunction the next day. Feel free to get out the ruler and give me a good spanking.
The summer is finally winding down. We had some severe weather last night that went on for almost an hour or so. My air conditioner system was frozen up (typical of triple degree temperatures!), so I sweltered in the hot, dark night, watching Saw 3D and writing a list of things to take to my doctor tomorrow. I also rummaged through some of my stuff looking for the loose ends that I needed to clean up before school starts this fall.
Tonight, Chloe wanted her hair washed and conditioned with the coconut shampoo and conditioner. She also wanted to use the Caress bath wash because she liked how it made momma smell after a bath. I told her she smelled like coconut flowers. That made her night and she skipped away in her pony-print pajamas, holding her pink bear. I am so good at this mommy stuff sometimes!
Little James is sick again. He's not getting out of bed much and complaining about being "warm all over". So it's off to the doctor's with him on Thursday afternoon. I'm afraid he has a bacterial infection somewhere. I've given him some Tylenol for the fever and the pain, but that was a few hours ago. He's back complaining of the pain and warmth again. I'm making him some sweet lemon tea to settle his stomach for now.
Dennis is somewhat ignoring me. He won't answer his phone, and he refuses to call me except at times when he knows that I can't talk on the phone. It really bothers me that he is doing this. I almost have to ask if Trevor is back. It's times like this when I ask God for help, but it has been so long since God has answered me that I sometimes wonder if God has turned His back on me. So many times I have asked for His help with my marriage, He has not answered me, nor has the situation improved any. I know that I am just impatient, but I don't want to think that way anymore. I don't want to think that God has turned his back on me. God doesn't do these things. I am looking for Scripture that has something to do with marriage worries, but I cannot find any. If anyone wants to help point me to some Scriptures that have helped them with relationship worries, I'd appreciate it.
Yes, I know that Google.com exists, but I would feel better to get some live feedback from people that, I assume, have been reading about my situation for the last few years. Ever since our little PoRo died, our marriage hasn't been the same. I sometimes wonder if the relationship was falling apart because she died, or was it falling apart all along and we just didn't know about it?